[I'm really not sure if this is what you were going for, but I hope you like it.]
Robert
They told her she didn't want to be a mother. Not that she was too young, they didn't quite have the nerve to say that to her after all she had been through because of them, but they told her how hard it was, how she would be up all night. As if she wouldn't be up all night anyway, wondering what happened to him. But in the end they let her know him, sometimes even called him hers when he was a little one, thought they were careful never to teach him to call her "mother."
When she had given birth, at home for secrecy, with everyone gathered around, they tried to not even let her hold him. But she yelled at everyone to leave, putting all her pain into her voice, and they had left for a short time. She had held him then, and sung to him, and promised him the world though she knew she could not give it. Stevie named her son "Robert," simply because she liked that name. She knew they would erase that name, though, and give him another.
They told her she didn't want to be a mother, but she already was.
BBC River - Stevie - Rated Teen - "born without a name on the darkest day"
Robert
They told her she didn't want to be a mother. Not that she was too young, they didn't quite have the nerve to say that to her after all she had been through because of them, but they told her how hard it was, how she would be up all night. As if she wouldn't be up all night anyway, wondering what happened to him. But in the end they let her know him, sometimes even called him hers when he was a little one, thought they were careful never to teach him to call her "mother."
When she had given birth, at home for secrecy, with everyone gathered around, they tried to not even let her hold him. But she yelled at everyone to leave, putting all her pain into her voice, and they had left for a short time. She had held him then, and sung to him, and promised him the world though she knew she could not give it. Stevie named her son "Robert," simply because she liked that name. She knew they would erase that name, though, and give him another.
They told her she didn't want to be a mother, but she already was.